my mom gets on my last nerve

ok,so by now you all know about my new school, and the two boys that like me. if you don't let me fill you in. i go to a knew school, i've gone there for three days now, and there are two boys that i know like me. one of them is this boy tristin, who i think is kinda cute, but brandon is too short for me, even though he is cute, and nice. but tristin, ahhh, im at a loss for words. i wish he would just tell me that he likes me already. its not like i don't know. three people already told me, and one of them was one of his friends, so i know for sure. then today in art, one of his other friends, darius, who i also find totally hot, kept asking me if i liked tristin. of course the answer is yes, but i didn't answer. then i saw him again outside. at first i thought he had already left, because by the time i got to my locker, after walking behind insanely slow people down the stairs for about an HOUR, he wasn't there. outside he was with his friends, and they were talking, and looking at me. i had a good idea that they were talking about me, but you can never be sure about anything, until they come over to you. and start talking to you, and saying stuff like "talk", "be friends", "love each other", and stuff like that. i would have no problem with any of them, but of course tristin had to act like a little girl, and get all shy, but it was cute. every time i think about him, i get butterflies in my stomach. like right now, and...now. so, when i got home, i told my mom all about my day, and about the whole tristin thing(but not me liking him), and you know what she said to me? "i just want you to know that the whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing isn't permitted to you, you're only 12", or something like that. it just really made me mad, because she thinks that she can just control me . i don't care that she's not letting me date, well, actually i do, but it's just that she controls everything in my life, and has a bunch of restrictions pointed towards me. im not saying that i don't have a great life, and my mom isn't awesome, its just that she can be so over baring at times. it can be so stressful. she doesn't even let me go to sleep overs, because she thinks everyone is a rapist. aren't sleep overs like the key to success when it comes to being a girl? the answer you are probably looking for is yes, at least i know that's the answer im looking for. maybe she lighten up if i keep this retched attitude towards her.
kthnxbai!

my first day(two days ago)

well tuesday was my first day at my new school, and so far its all good. the people are nice, i mean most of them, and we haven't really had any real classes, so i can't comment on that. sidenote: if i hear airplanes again in the next 2 hrs, im gonna have a bf. back to the main subject: school. i really am happy there, but i don't know why. i think that my mom thinks that i am makeing up the fact that i really do likem my new school more than my old one. propbably because i can't give her a real reason, but i don't have one, it just feels right, you know. i also hear tha a certain boy(s) like me. i'm pretty sure that tristin likes me, but i'm not so sure about the whole brandon thing. that one was kinda random, and i only heard that one from one person. mind you, neither one of these boys are in my class, so what does that tell you? i think that i also have made a few good friend. i do believe that i've made 11 friends in two days, which is pretty much a record, for me anyway. now, i get kinda jittery when i think about tristin, which is kinda weird since i don't really know him, i actually don't really know anyone, but i really don't know him. i didn't think that i liked him either...i guess i just like the feeling of being capable to be liked by more than one person, but that doesn't make me a slut...does it?omigosh, did i tell you that i finally got a locker? no, well idid, and despite what i heard i don't have o share it. guess what else, tristin's locker is right next to mine, and my other friend olivia's is next to his, which i don't really have a problem with, because at least i'm around people i like. i love that our social studies teacher is so easy going, in her class we can sit wherever we want, and after that, i don't have to leave 'cause i'm in that room for dissmisal, and of course that it my new self assigned seat,and i like having that choice. it makes me feel older, and i've always wanted that kind've freedom. i also don't have a problem with assigned seats, and i don't really have room for a choice to have a problem with them, because i have assigned seats in all of my other classes which kind've bites the big one. i have to go now, but i'll be back later
kthnxbai!

midsummer's dream

i think that i have a right to say the the dream i had this afternoon had to be one of the best/strangest dreams i ever had. i liked it so much that i am going to turn it into a book. i'm not going to say what it was about, because some person that reads this might try to turn my dream into a book before i do. then they'll get all the fame, and fortune. to keep it short, it's not happenin'. i just thought that you all had a right to know that i will be writing a book.
kthnxbai!

who's a happy camper??? i am!!!

its not even freakin' funny how relieved i am to be back home. for i while i wasn't even sure if we would end up coming, but we finally did, even if it was a day late, and even though my mom left to go to savannah, georgia the next day. i'm just so happy to be home...well at my grandparents house which is kind've like a 2nd, or 3rd home, if you don't count my dad's house. i do. let's recap what happend yesterday: i feel like the plane ride took forever, because it practiacally did. the first one (we had connecting flights) was only about an hour long, but we were kinda early for the flight, so we ate a little. all i had was some french flies. afterwards, we were on the smallest/loudest plane possible. it practically impossible to get any sleep. somehow the guy sitting next to me fell asleep. i'm not even lying when i say that he looked exactly like an older version of toby issacs from degrassi. i would never lie about something like that. i didn't ask if it was him, because i didn't know his real name. i think it would be kinda weird to say, "hey, aren't you the guy that played toby issacs on degrassi a few years ago?"...actually, that sounds like a good idea now. oh, whatever, let's just get back to the story. so, after that flight, we had to take another one from phili to nc, and that one was so much nicer. it was bigger, for one thing, and it was wayyyy quieter than the first one. it looked kind've futuristic to me. it must've been a new plane. the seats were so big, but then again, i guess all seats are big compared to the first plane. anyway, where was i...oh yeah, the flight seemed so quick. i guess it seemed fast because i was watching a movie, but still. it might've also been because we were going to nc from phili, and not new york. once we landed i felt like we were at the airport forever. my luggage came on time but for some strange reason, my mom's bag got to the airport before we did because it came on the non-stop flight. i don't even know why, and neither does my mom, which is kinda weird, because i feel like she has all of the answers. i wanted to go to chick-fil-a so badly, but we took a car service, so i guess we couldn't really stop. i guess i can always get some at the mall 2morrow, or on monday. when i got to my house it was so freakin hot upstairs. it was completely ridiculous. i thought i was gonna pass out. there was literally sweat dripping off of my face by the time i came back downstairs. since my mom left to go to savannah, georgia, i got to come to my grandparents house, which is where i'm typing this post from. i love it here. like i said, it's like a 2nd, or 3rd home. when i got here yesterday, it was kind've a chill day. i didn't do much, but since it was friday, i got to get pizza. fridays are usually pizza fridays, but when i'm in new york, i don't get it. i guess thats because my mom and i are both trying to lose weight. oh, and we also got ice cream from Brewster's. i love their ice cream. its so creamy. i guess thats where they got ice "cream" from. i never knew that you could get two flavors of ice cream in one cup. i may never go back to the brownie sundae's again. in a word: delicious! now on to today: i woke up at the crack of dawn, and i do mean crack, it was stil gray outside, to go bike riding with my grandmother. well technically, she walked, but that's beside the point. as soon as i got home i passed out. i slept until almost 2pm. i could've done better though. my record is 3:40pm. i am so proud of myself. anyway, where was i...oh yeah, we went to magiano's for my grandmother's birthday. technically her birthday is on monday, but we celebrated it today. it was absolutely delicious. i love it there. that's really all i did today, but i had a great time!
kthnxbai!
(Note: and started on friday, and completed on saturday)

the ups, and downs of my life

i am so pumped. so many great things are happening right now that i can barely contain myself. unfortunately, there are some bad things going on too. the great things are as follows. 1. i am going to nc tomorrow. 2. degrassi: the boiling point has a new episode coming on in less than 15min. 3. my outfit for tomorrow is soo cute. 4. i am going to look so pretty by the time school rolls around because i am getting plenty beauty sleep(i woke up at 3:40pm today). the bad things are as follows. 1. i still haven't packed yet. 2. degrassi the boiling point might be coming to an end because its been going on for a while now. as they say, all great things must come to an end. 3. i wore the shorts that i'm wearing tomorrow yesterday, but not for a long time. only 2hr tops. 4. my plan might be a little convoluted because i stay up late, and then sleep late. i don't know, i hope this plan works. 5. this computer is about to die, because as i stated yesterday, this charger is a piece of crap. 6. i have no idea what to pak for this glorious trip to my hometown(kinda). 7. i still haven't finished my summer homework. i guess i'll have to do that in nc. i seem to always do that on every break. i wait until i get to nc, and then on the day before we come home, i try and finish all of my "over-break" hw. this time, it's gonna be different. i promise. my nose is itchy, but again, im trying to keep typing before this computer automatically saves all my work. that would probably be a good idea since there is no telling when this computer is gonna die. anyway, where was i before i rudely interrupted myself? ah yes, 8. i have to put all of my laundry away before i leave, which is tomorrow. 9. i have to wash all of the dishes, not fun. ok, thinking about all of this makes me think that i should get on it. so i'll be back tomorrow, or friday, or maybe even saturday.
kthnxbai!

i'm soo distressed

im distressed. im soo freakin distressed. to start off, The Bad Girls Club: Miami sucs, arse. its soo aweful i want to throw up. i don't think that any of you understand how dissapointed i am in the retard fest. all of them look like street walkers, and they go around saying "BAD GIRLS" all freakin day, and then they go to lubs, get into fights, and get thrown out. its soo stupid. i was excited for the longest time for the show to come back on, but now i just want a different season to come on.i really hope that this is going to better in the future. the next episode needs to be 10x's better than the past 2. i'm also distressed because my hollister jeans might not come until the 19th of august. do u know how long it's gonna take, and how impatient i am. it's completey barbarick. i reallyyy hope that they get to NC before the 19th. another reason i'm distressed is because this computer that i'm typing on is a bunch of crap. scratch that, the charger is a piece of crap. the slightest movement , and it loses power, but that's only on certain days. two days ago i could move it all over the place, and then just tap it, and it would be fine. now i have to make sure its in just the right spot at just the right angle, and then it might work. its sooo stupid. the other reason im distressed is because this girl on youtube who makes awesome videos disabled her formspring account for a reaso unknown to the general publc. then theres this other person on formspring that laims to be her, but i don't believe it is actually her, because she is soo mean, and rude on there. the olivia on youtube doesn't seem like she would be there. she also said that she would be in los gatos, ca for a while, but the real olivia moved to a place 8hrs away from los gatos, ca. i forgot the name of it, and the real olivia has been in hawaii for the past 2-3 weeks. so i know that that person has to be fake. anyway, i wonder when my school list is coming. i really hope that it doesn't come whle we're in NC. that would brake my heart. my mom really needs to check the mail, or let my get it. i just need to know, and my magazine might be here. it distresses me not to know what's going on. commercials that come on also distress me. the RJ Berger commercial for instance, and also the commercial for The Nighlife. i don't ever plan on watching that show, so they might aswell stop playing commercials for it on my television. i have to pee so bad. i just dn't feel like getting up though. what else distresses me????? um, how about the fact that um, this thing saves my post everytime i stop typing. sonow i feel like i have to keep typing so it dpesn't save. i know that that's tupid, but i don't care. i just want the school list to come. then i want to go to NC and get everything i need there, including my clothes. i can't wait to go shopping. i just hope my mom has the money. i know what look i want to go for this year. not to preppy, but with a slight punk edge. usher distress me. "honey got some boobies like pow pow pow"??? really, is that the best that we could come up with? aren't you a grammy award winning artist? even if your not, you should now better than to write such foolishness. ok, my fingers hurt now, so i gues we're done for the day. i might be back tomorrow.
kthnxbai!

i'm soo confused

i'm so freakin' confused right now. i don't kno if i'm bored or excited. i'm bored because there is nothing to do right now, and i'm starving, but i'm excited because i'm going to North Carolina next week(YAY), and the Bad Girls Club is on a marathon, and then Bad Girls Club: Miami comes on tonight. u don't know how long i've been waiting for this show to come on oxygen. i thing i've been waiting since march, or february. yeah, it's been a long time....on the bright side i'm not starving anymore. i just made myself lunch. i made pasta italiana. ok, maybe not the italiana part, but its really good, and it was so easy to make. just boil the pasta but the sauce over heat, and some cheese, and then...BOOM, a good quality meal, that will hold me over until dinner. i just wish my stepmother could see that. she always acts like i can't do anything for myself. if i wanted to, or if i had to, i would do it. she doesn't see me every second of the day. she doesn't know what i do at home. she was sooo surprised when i made those brownies. listen here, i've making since before i even met her, so she needs to step of. i'm the one that introduced that house hold to ghiradelli brownies in the first place. i'm sorry, that just made me really mad. she just thinks that she knows everything sometimes. OMGZZ, this pasta is just soo good.i can't believe it was so good, and so easy to make. i hope that once we get to north carolina, my mom and i can go back to school shop. i want at least one article of clothing for mary-kate and ashley olsen's line, olsenboye, and madonna's new line, material girl. i saw them both in seventeen magazine, and the clothes looked so cute, and according to my dad, the cheapest man on the planet, the clothes are affordable. i hope my mom says yes. most of the time my mom says yes when we're in north carolina, so i think i have a good chane at getting what i want. i really don't wat to do my summer hw. i think the book is reallyboring. i think that i just find it boring because i have to re-read the beginning again because i have to add post-it notes, and write in the main parts of each chapter. since i already read the beginning, i'm not having fun doing it. it's just...bporing. i wonder what's going on between my mom, and my great aunt. everytime they see each other, it seems like they have a problem with each other. i really don't know why. i know that they had a problem a few years ago, but i still don't know hat happened. it was really weird, and i was really sad about it when my mom told me that they weren't talking. i distinctly remember her waking me up and telling me something happened between them, and i coudn't see her for a while. i was really crying, but i don't remember what happened. i think that i really do have short term memory-loss. i hope that if i ask my mom what happened, she will tell me. that reminds me, i should call bff that i llas back.
i run l.a....
kthnxbai!

i feel sooo sick

its not even freakin' funni how sick i feel right now. i personally blame dominoes. why u may ask. well, its because for 2 days i had dominoes (i know, how fat am i), and on the second day i threw up 3 times. the bright side is that i didn't gain any weight from the past 3 days. after my vomit espionage, all i ate/drank was crackers and tea. surprisingly, it actually filled me up. the sad part is now we're out of crackers, so i've moved up to chickirina soup from progresso. its like, my favorite soup. ok, i just heard of this new group"burnham", and now i hav 2 look them up. its like official now. ooh, jersey shore update...nvr mind, just some mindless talk from 10 on top. i cannot wait until jersey shore comes back on. im not gonna say that i'm the biggest fan, but i do love me some gtl, that's gym tan laundry for those unknowing. i can say that i might be big fans of 16 & Pregnant, Teen Mom, and Degrassi: The Next Generation. those shows totes mcgoats rock my world. i mean not literally, but i do love them. im also becoming hooked on If You Really New Me. it isn't as bad as i thought it would be. i am coming to realize that my stomach hurts the worst at night, and then its hard for me to go to sleep. omgzz, speaking of last night, there was like a miniature flood in my mom's, and my apartment. i don't really know how it happened, but i guess because where the air conditioner is, there is an opening,were rain could come in, but i don't understand how s much water could come in such a tiny opening. i understand that there was a lot of rain, but omgzz, that was a lot of rain. it completely ruined the wood floor. i feel some kind of way about that, and not a good way. ughhh my stomach hurts again. what's even worse is that the soup is cold. i'll be back, i have to go warm it up...i got badly side tracked. i rested a while, and then i fixed my glasses. it was so easy after two, three weeks tops. its so great. especially since my back-ups are so gross looking. i know my step mother said that i needed new ones, but what does she know. these glasses are still full proof. well, i wouldn't say full proof, but they will last me until i go to the eye doctor before school. i really hope my mom will come through, and get me some contacts. i hate glasses. they are such a hassle. i think that is how you spell hassle. im going to start using this as my diary, since im supposed to write a journal for part of my 7th grade summer homework. did you hear that? 7th grade. i cannot wait. this year is going to rock. i am going to make a splash, even though i am going to be a new kid...again. i think i should work on my main summer homework, and read this stupid book "Flush". and then i have 2 answer questions, sooo stupid. but hey, i should actually read the book before i call it stupid. i wonder what a glass freeze pop tastes like...
kthxbai

i feel sooo accomplished!

it's not even freakin' funny how accomplished i feel right now. last week on Monday @ around 2:30pm, i made gack my boyfriend (hold for applause). i dumped him at around the same time the next Monday, but it's all good. he was really nice, he treated me fine, but he didn't make me feel special, and like i was his girlfriend. he just treated me like he did before. we went out once, and that was fun, but still. i also dumped him because i can admit that i like javan way more than i like gack. that kinda sucks for me because one of my friends (shiann), hates his guts. i mean, she really hates him. she said that she wasn't mad about me liking him, but i could tell that she was really pissed. that also might've been because she liked him first, and he turned her down. yeah...that's probably it. i really didn't think this through did i? anyway, i feel really well about how i dumped gack, and how well he took it. we're still friends, and we occasionally flirt with each other, but i know that in my heart that i like javan more than i liked gack. it's too bad since i personally only have 3 more days of school. i guess i'll never know what could've been since i'm switching schools for next year. goodbye gross public school, hello beautiful private school. ok, i was only joking about that, but i am moving to private school next year. thank goodness that it's not an all girls school, because i don't know what i would do if i went to a school where i couldn't stare at boys all day. hahaha!. i'm really gonna miss everyone in my class next year. i'm even gonna miss omatte. weird...the only person i'm not gonna miss is ebrook. she's just really gross. but on the bright side, i have accomplished a lot in these last few weeks. i got a boyfriend, dumped him, admitted my true feelings for javan, kissed a boy, forgave my teacher(almost), and got a's in all my classes except for 1. i am officially ready for the summer!
kthxbai!

i'm soo excited

its not even freakin' funny how excited i am right now. let me start off say that i am soo sorry for not posting anything for a long time. i've just been really busy w/ school, friends, and what not, but mostly i've been busy with BOYS! no!, not that kinda busy. more like busy stressing over them, and liking them, and everything. remember that boy that i talked about that i had to get over in the post b4 this, well i finally got over him. what's even better is that i have 2 new crushes that i think like me back. lets call the javan & gack. their both Irish, and I think that they're hot. i even had a part of a dream where i was full-frontal snogging gack. it was beautiful. the bad part is that javan thinks that i like gack (which i do) because of the dream. now i'm worried that he doesn't like me, but i have a good feeling that he does. that dream also got most of the class to call me a whore for a whole period, but it was all in good fun. i found very funny. thats the other good thing. i sit either in front or next to javan or gack for more than 2 periods in school. like i said, i have a good feeling about both of these two. its great having crushes that aren't jerks like my last crush, let's cal him rick. i'm not here to bag on rick, but he was a total jerk-off. anyway, the other good thing is that i'm going on a cruise the day b4 school ends. its kinda sad that i'll miss the last day of school, which is also the last chance that i'll have to be with my friends since i'm changing schools next year (thats another story), but i'm really excited about the cruise. it gonna be on the Oasis of the Sea. oh, i can't wait. i also get to miss school on June 24, bcuz both my 5th grade brother, and my 12th grade sister are graduating. i think that its only right that i support them as they move onto the next chapter of their lives. i hope that this doesn't mean that i'll miss the 8th grade graduation. i was really looking forward to that. they are soo lucky that they get to have their last dance on a freakin' yacht! anyway, i just had to share that with you all!
kthxbai!

i'm getting over it

it's not even freakin' funny how hard this is. there is this boy in my class that my heart ultimately belongs to, and now i have to stop liking him. why, you might find yourself asking? he has nice biceps, he doesn't have a huge ego, he can be playful, and what about those arms, but according to different sources, and physical actions, his hear belongs to another. heart crushing, i know. just typing these words makes me want to cry. is hard not to like his guy anymore, because i've liked him since he beginning of the year. i used to get little signals that he liked me too. he would hold my bag for my (about 30000 lbs), he joked around with me (tried to quiz me on Franc...FAIL), and we would just sit around and talk sometimes. even my friends were like "he's totally your boy toy". ever since i told my friends that i liked him, and one of my friends admitted that she liked him too, it all gone down hill. it got all over half the grade, and it makes me seem obsessed. no one will let me live it down. he looks at me occasionally, but its not the same. he also acts all lovey dovey with this other girl that is tre popular. he hugs her, kisses her on the cheek, twirls her around, and its hard to be around him, because i know what he does with the other girl. i wish i never told my friends that i liked him. i might've had a chance with this guy if i didn't say a single word. i guess i just have to get over him. (tear tear)

i hate my teacher

it's not even freakin' funny how much i despise my math teacher. she's so spiteful, and it's ridiculous. just because your boyfriend dumped you doesn't mean that you can take it out me, or anyone for that matter. maybe your not a morning person (or a person at all), but you don't have to be so evil. i'm sorry if there is something that is making you behave in this evil matter, but honestly woman(?). you make me freakin' hate going to school. math already wasn't my favorite subject, but now i just all around hate it. thanks to you. i really do hope that your happy. you hjkbthsindjterbcuokh. just so you know, there is a secret message in there. none of you get to know it, and that's why its a secret. HAHA! anyways, know that i hate you, and your boyfriend is never coming back to you!

semi-tired is what i am

it's not even freakin' funny how i'm semi-tired right now. i don't want to go to sleep, because i just ate, and i'm about to go "release the kraken", but i want to. i think that i should, because the last time i was tired before i saw a movie, i fell asleep, and i missed all of Avatar:3D, but i saw it again, and it wasn't that good. still, i'm tired. i'm watching white chicks right now, and i just find it so funny. when they battle the vanderbelts, and then tiffany is like "i know you hookers don't think this is over", and then they dance in a circle with this facial expression that says "WHAT NOW, HUH ?!" pure hilarity, i swear to you. OMGZZZ, when i was at this restaurant called sip, i had this pot of chocolate, and let me tell you, it was sooo good. chocolate & creme together is really delicious. i just noticed that i write a lot of posts that no one reads. lawlz. ok, i'm taking my nap now.

kthxbai!

I'm soo freakin' bored!

it's not even funny how bored I am right about now. this day is practically over, and there is nothing left to do on this dreary Saturday evening. lawlz, i'm watching this show as i type this foolish crap, and its kinda funny. ironic no? well, its not really ironic but IDGAF. i want to see Kick-Ass soo badly. i don't even know why i do, but i do. it sounds like i'm getting married. i think that i want to see it because of the name. i can see it in my head now. some random little kid at home "mommie, i want to see kick-ass" lawlz. if you've read this far, congratulations, you have absolutely no life. no i'm just kidding. no i'm not. yes i am. that was kinda confusing, but whatever. if i get one freakin comment about how stupid this post is, i swear i will hunt you down, and severely hurt you in your sleep. DON'T DO IT. i'm only doing this because i am as bored as i don't know what. i think i have to say that, as far as the internet is concerned, Vanessa Vandalism is my favorite person. she is just "dry humor" hilarious. Lee Lightning pisses me off, because she's so not scene. YOU'RE NOT FREAKIN' SCENE, YOU POSER! it's just sad, actually.

Lee Lightning: look at me, i'm gonna say that i have alopecia because vanessa vandalism has it!

if she actually does have alopecia, i'm sorry for typing this, but srsly, she can go like fall in a hole. and i swear i would laugh my arse off. i just got instantly tired, so, i'll be back later, and put up a really random post. OMGZZZ, PURPLE DINOSAURS ARE TAKING OVER THE WORLD!!!

kthxbai!

oh, i'm so annoyed

ok, it's not even freakin' funny how badly my dad annoyed me about 2 hours ago. He just came out of no where, and asked me how many hours a week i spend practicing my guitar. i told him it depends, but he didn't believe me. then he gets this random attitude, and that really bugged me. he started lecturing me, and he was all like "what are your goals witht the guitar"? i told him that i wanted to be able to play one song, and then he went ballistic. "one song, that's it?" it was so stupidd. i could've slapped him. then out of nowhere, he starts talking about how he can get me this reading for a play if i still wanted to do it. the thing was that he said it with so much 'tude, i almost said no. i ended up saying yes because i really do want to act, but dude, really, just calm the freak down before you piss us all off